Today, Steph and I had another appointment at St. Annes with the Maternal Fetal Medicine group. The appointment was pretty brief.

They took more measurements and tried to get us a few good pictures of his face, but he was being a booger and wouldn’t look at the “camera”.

We saw a different doctor who said the same thing the other doctors have been saying. His long bones still look very short and the doctor is convinced that Noah won’t survive after birth.

I keep wrestling with what to say in this post. Mostly because I don’t feel like writing one today because today has been a very hard day for us. I feel broken and I don’t know how to handle this any more. I think one of the toughest things about tragedy and hardships is that the world doesn’t stop spinning so you can get yourself together.

We haven’t given up hope. It’s just so hard not knowing what God’s plan and will is. We know that God is the great healer, but it’s not always His will to heal. He is the holder of life and death, and yet we still lose people we love. We know that He is sovereign over us, and we still go through hardships. We know that He is good and He works all things for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purpose, but sometimes we can’t see His goodness and we can’t see what He is working.

We continue to fix our eyes on the Lord and pray for our son’s healing.

Sorry for the scattered thoughts and the poorly written post today. If the right words strike me later I will write another post soon.

We thank you all for your love and support and want you to know if you bump into us or see us at church, please don’t be afraid to speak to us, pray for us, ask us questions, ect… We are so thankful for our friends, family and the body of Christ.

– Josh